Believe in you
It took me a while to get to this point of self-love and discovery. And like many of us, I still have a long way to go. But I am proud of how far I come even though, at times it feels very small. There have been a lot of setbacks and starting over and building confidence and then losing it. From marriage, motherhood and divorce, grad school, and tons of workshops, classes, MONEY. The insecurity of my capabilities has circled my life and kept me hostage to myself. To get here, to a place where I can own my mistakes and see me, I was alone and could not run from myself. Partly due to COVID pandemic, because right before lockdown I had big plans to take classes and travel and live! But as we were forced to shut in, I couldn’t escape myself anymore. It was just me, myself and I. From the outside and inside for all that I am.
Who I want to become has been my greatest inspiration
and I hold on to that because I am still developing here. I compared myself to what other people who have at some point know or knew who they wanted to be and I was steadily working to toward it. How did they have such strong conviction. Honestly, I used to let anything deter me from my path, goal and dreams. I was not strong in my conviction of who I am and what I have to offer, that anyone’s idea or suggestion I would either do or second guess myself.
Love yourself first
My ahha moment was when I realized what self-love is. If you loved and cared about yourself, why would you allow yourself to suffer and be unhappy if you have the power to change it? To love yourself is to truly consider yourself, your goals, and assess if situations your are in are best for your overall well-being. You honestly cannot love other properly if you do not love yourself